The Runners' Booty

This morning I put on a pair of trousers that I've had for several years - these trousers has felt the size of my booty fluctuate. I slipped them on and realized that my runners' booty is back.

I had a hard time dealing with this last year as I was training for my first half-marathon. I was drinking gallons of water, eating well and I even gave up alcohol yet I was still gaining weight - especially in a particular area. My booty was abnormal - it was HUGE! My friends noticed my butt get bigger. They liked it while I became self-conscious. I didn't know what was going on. I started asking questions. I even Googled it and came across this blog post "Running into a great butt" by a runner named Lance - it made me re-think my insecurity.

I've always had a butt even at my smallest size but I had never thought about it beings an asset - I was too worried about doing chest presses for them to look bigger. While I was too busy focused on my upper body, my lower body was doing its own thing - my butt was building muscle, my thighs were getting strong and my calves were more beautiful than they'd ever been. I wondered why those petite Asian girls didn't have my problem. I would fish for compliments by making negative comments about my butt. I kept telling myself that guys liked it to make myself feel better - it would work for a minute but didn't make a difference.

Finally, I decided to end the suffering and learned to love it. I loved how running made me feel - I might as well love the strong, beautiful and sexy body it gave me. I learned to love my entire body from the top of my head to the tip of my toes. One night, I put on a dress that nicely hugged my body. I stood in front of a full length mirror, turned around and said to myself, "Heeaaay booo..." ;)